After reading volume 22 I read what the cat said:
....I don't want eternity. I don't need permanence....I know it's frightening but let us accept that things end. I know it's sad but let us accep that lives depart. I knowe it was only for a short time but I was happy with you. If one more time we both die and are reborn and if we meet again I don't want to only see you in the moonlight. I want to see you smile under the light of the sun as well. Next time, I don't want to meet you only those of us here. I want too meet you while you're smiling within a ring of people....
(Some words were skipped like My God or Lord)

I also lost a lot of family and friends during my 17 years of life. And it was alway hard knowing that tomorrow they won't be there when I get up or when I go to bed. But I realized that what the cat said is true. I really don't want to be eternal. I want to meet new people and I know life goes on. Yeah, it hurts for a while or maybe even a long time. Losing 13 friends is hard, though maybe some one thier deaths are my fault. Most of them I saw everyday and I slept over their houses and knew their parents really well. Some I went to school with. It's hard to accept that they aren't there, looking at the empty seats, houses, and knowing "Oh wow, she isn't there anymore". But I think everyone should try and think of what the cat said. After reading this, I might go and visit a friend's grave. I want to tell him about everything since I last saw him. (His grave I mean) Since Christmas. And I want to tell him about what the cat said. Maybe I'll cry, but maybe it might put some easy on my heart.

Love,
Ruby